Human flaws---PMS week

ok... y the hell is my topic so controversial? heheh ... nth much actually... just wanna tok about some feelings that overcame me the other days.. haha...

firstly is about DA! first feeling! ok... i have always admired cara's unique sense of drawing lah seriously. I mean i dun see that type of drawing anywhere else and i oso dunno how she could always draw with her style. I think my style is more common like than hers so i dun pretty much like it. Though i tried to develope my own style, i still think its quite a way from realli finding one unique one which belog solely to me. Haha... so as u can guess, my admiration turns to jealousy T.T haha... ok... how did i find out? haha... you know cara also created a DA account on the same day as me? hahaha ... and i was jealous coz her pageviews are many much more than. yup... T.T so i was quite depressed as well. But den i told myself that its wierd coz it doesnt tally much. I mean many ppl came by to her page but there wasnt much comments from them. Like how can it be possible i wondered to myself. Haha... my form of consolation. So then i refreshed again and found out that hey! another increased in 3 pageviews including my re-entrance... so became quite quite depressed... so rant on and on to angie :X poor angie... haha... ears rotten....lol ... and she sick sommore... ahhahaha... gomen :D However, after ranting out, i felt much better le... hehe... and today was completely cured le lah ... OHOHOHO.... and also found out that cara had commented on some pieces... so touched T.T and i thought she wouldnt care much and don't give a heck about commenting T.T So now to comfort myself more, i said to myself. Her artwork and mine are totally and completely different so we cant compare it. I might add say that her clothes are much more complicated than mine but i can say i noe how to draw hands better (mwhahah) so its realli hard. And wad cara said on DA is true, like how every piece of art is beautiful in its on way. T.T and yah.. to comfort myself more.. haha... she learnt drawing when she was young and she drew quite often. I think she also won some prize in her sec school days if im not wrong... and oh yah! she draws animals so well manx... i cant :C haha... so she is many times my senior since i had onli learn to draw well 2 yrs ago. Hmmm... last time my art was nice becoz it was damn colorful lah ... lol... so yup... muz rant it out one last time to forgo the feelings... YOSH!

so next up! the next feeling due to PMS... lol.... realli cant stand this week much man!! got project need next week hand in and we haven even touched on it yet! OMGOSH! and hor... this week got so much damn hws lor! OMGOSH! everyday when i get home, im already so washed out and tired up that i cant even open my eyes liao lah ... realli so tired... so gotta resort to copying hw in school. Although wanted to skip lesson today, circumstances stopped me from it becoz if lidat hor, den dunno how im gonna hand up hw le and nothing to copy from, and qian too much hw until i will lost track whad is wat. GOSH! tml vesak day oso cant rest! friday still got another pile of hw to hand in T.T omgosh! i want to faint. Therefore, this week im very pek cek and easily irritated plus come that thing and gotta do so many things is realli a pain in the arse manx T.T i wanna take my 2 weeks break now!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhh!!!!!!!! and i so want to finish my sadistic angel piece lor!!!!!!!! and my table is a mess coz its strewn with color pencils and marker!!!!!!! cant even find a spot to eat and do my things!!!!! still gotta pack!!!!!! argghhhhhh...

Im running outta anime pics to put liao lah .. T.T and its already 5!!!! so late!!!! no more time to enjoy liao lah ... :X but today was also happy coz someone has added me into their gallery... as in that person will choose some nice works of mine to feature there. Wootz! i had already declined once le lah ... but the person say dun underestimate myself and added me. lol... well... hope not to disappoint the person then. Hmmm....haha... he/she oso quite became my penpal in DA le... haha... yupz... :D

Concluding

oki... so many things for me to conclude!!! gahhh.... lets start with the poll on ur right first... hmmm... couldnt get 10 votes as per expected so yah... wadever... lol ... the results are as follows: 1 vote:10-30, 3 votes for 30-50 and 4 votes for >100. Well, the correct answer is.... (drum rolls) >100!!!!! ahahaha.... the last time i counted which was very well one yr ago, i had already reached 70 animes... lol.... yup! surprised hor... and how the hell do u think u are accurate?! tt's bcoz, for every anime that i have watched, i will go dl their song. LOL... and tt time my mp4 is onli like arnd 2.8GB occupied. Now, my mp4 is left with arnd 500MB nia outta the 6GB! O.o!!! Haha... of coz its not all totally jap and my mei mei also dumped in lots of chinese songs but i can say that up to 75% of my mp4 is jap songs... LOL..

and another conclusion, if ppl dun understand ur story, its quite depressing actually when it is said into ur face T.T hmmm... the story i have written is not like a story for story books. Its actually written in script form so u have the actions and the narrative part. For these types of writing, u have to totally imagine out the whole play urself using ur imaginative mind. Briefly scanning thru it or just anyhow reading it will get u nowhere.

So yupz... tt time when to library to draw it our but turns out the artist herself dun even understand wad im writing. and angie de bf oso say he dun understand. So in the end i wasnt in the mood for drawing that piece and thought maybe im gonna do it myself in the end... haha... cara did say she was having a headache and such budden she read the story b4 le lah ... muz be just scanning then. :S ... well, pardon me if u read this post coz i will post wad im thnking w/o a care in the world de... hohohoho.... so u see me straight with my thought s usually.

So yup... realli disappointed!! so angie is the onli one who is my fan for the story perhaps and plus xcatcatx(PKO fren) hahaha... pumpkin families!!!! except for papa pumpkin, enjoyed the story....hahaha.... up till now, nth has actually started yet and i noe its gonna be quite boring if i dragged it on so next chapter, i will be introducing many many more characters already (plus angie de noisy char!) ahahaha (ping, piang, pomp) see lah .. she hitting me agnT.T

anyways, we sketched out the general guideline for the prelude le and it was realli onli 2 sides of one paper nia lor! omgosh... so short... :X and im now working on another art piece liao le (T.T the gal's eyes is wrong!!! budden i dun wan to redraw!!!)... hohoh... sort de... hw piled up so much but haven touched a bit sia... haha... now is the climax for my artwork publishing i guess... haha.... and realli happy coz i have only been in DA for like 1 week including today and the ratings are as below: 14 Deviations(art pieces) with 23 comments, 68 pageviews, my 14 deviations has a total of 174 views(weeeeeee!!!) and 3 ppl watches me grow as an artist! Statistics are as this morning and ur viewing counts as well. If i visit my own page, i cannot add to the total views. When cara wasnt on9 and i had nth better to do, i visited her page several times a day and keep going back to see her redeemer lor... nth in there le.... :X

Hehehe... its realli fun to see them grow in nos. i mean the total views... haha... when i had 12 deviations, there was 120 views ... hehehe... muz be all thnks to u ppl...hoho... and i realli dunno y my mysterious angel is popular. That was a piece frm way way back T.T and i post way too many angels i guess. The piece im working on is yet of another angel le T.T hahaha... i love all my angels! they all have beautiful wings!! (sniggers) ... ahh crap... gonna be late for school liao!!!! bye! and i think l8r come home den post more pictures to beautify this post.

Alamak!

omgosh.... diarrhoeing coz i ate something unclean from pasah malam... zzzzzzzz.... was so happy and excited today de coz i have just finished coloring my shadowless gothika but den came my diarrhoea T.T ahhh.. wadever... it will stop soon since diarrhoea is self-limiting... no energy to type le lah ... lol

Anyways, today i spent 4.5 hrs to complete that gothika piece man. Haha... dunno how to get about coloring the background coz it was too big for color pencil liao and den dun have any poster or watercolor with me. So ya... tt's y.... in the end i resorted to scrubbing off my finger skin cells. LOL.... dun wanna retype wad i did so just check out my DA. lol....

This time crazy about chibi drawings le...ahaha ... drew one ytd... like it... but upon reviewing it again today, didnt like it liao...haha... not as cute as i wanted it to be... will try harder next time and make kawaii chibi's. First time a failure is all good... haha ...

lol... this is just a very cute chibi sasuke i found on DA... hahaha

Aye... dun wanna do hw lah ... zzzz... so sianzzz.. but thnk heaven tml 1pm den school... at least can wake up earlier to complete... haha ...

Oh ya, cara oso has a DA accound liao le... FeelMySoul... haha.. go check her art out too and increase her pageviews and artviewed nos. With her art skills, i think she can be famous realli soon! ahaha... if she is not lazy and consistently post lah.... lol.... and ppl do like photoshop stuff more... lol ... I WANT MY PHOTOSHOP so i can do many many effects for my characters T.T the last time i did de was abit childish lah coz i used quite loud colors... lol... sorry... im quite a loud person and the colors i choose are of course like me...lol... not gonna post my painted drawing here le .... haha ...

ATSUI!!

WAH LAO !!! so hottt!!! its sweltering hot!!! omgosh!!! i think it is a good idea to run to the library for the cold cold air con today. My air-con sort le lah ... and if i on my air con, my brother is gonna be the one to get a heat stroke bcoz the air vent is beside the window he is working from. Crap! ahhhhh... cant stand another second liao lah .....

oki.. i've uploaded this today!! woohooo.... my new edited version and i pretty much like this one here! hehe

Pls comment ty!

Thats all for this morning bah.... when im back, i will post more. Going to the library to draw afterall. Dunno lei... not much in the feel to draw oso... haha... will bring my markers there so i can paint. Or else oso can draw wad ah bui asked me to draw....haha.... The theme: "A person with a happy face but who hides lots of secret". Hmmm... got a general idea liao ... haha... look forward to it bah!! and if u want me to draw anything for u, u can also post the theme here. The drawings will be sent to u but they will definitely go into my DA account... haha... so yupx... dun flood me... i cant work many pieces at once... :D

11.10pm
Just came back and my mei mei showed me a video about singapore! Its so damn funny! haha.. ur should go view the video at least 2 times... hahahaha ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch-z5s2JabY

DEFINTELY MUZ GO SEE K!! AHAHA :D

OHOHOHO! YATTA NEH!

YESH! finally pharmco test owarita!!!! HOHOHOHO... and hor... ppl complain my blog very noisy..... So i gotta change it le. Coz i find it noisy myself (sniggers) so now, the "Playlist" is set to play if you click and its on auto shuffle mode. There's a total of 15 songs which are currently in my favourites. There're more in my mp3 playlist of the season thou... haha... if you want to noe wad im currently into, you could just get prepared, lower down ur vol. and listen in peace. HAHAHAHAHA...

next up, i think no need REFORMAT com liao!! ahaha... when i switch on com today, there was no more stupid pop ups and the com was running rather smoothly. Dunno lah ... monitor for a few more days to decide coz i didnt save my current wallpaper and i realli like it alot T.T cant find back liao.

Hmmmm... I WANT PHOTOSHOP! think will have to go find CS3 to dl and find the hack le... hehehehe (evil laughs). So what i will be doing today... im gonna scan wad i drew ytd in and update on DA. check it out! there will be a color version but maybe it will come later. I also tried drawing a gothic gal ytd nite. Lol, will scan in after adding her background. Drawing with a thick pen realli is tough. Also, chapter 3 of the story is supposed to be out today too. Hahaha... Supposed ah... dunno if im too tired or wadsoever or decided to color my drawings instead... hahaha.... cheers!

Hmmm... quite disappointed about tml lah (realli looked forward to the drawing day coz of the stress buildup).. coz one morn cannot, one night cannot, den in the end cant draw much le. Was looking forward to drawing a whole tonnes of pictures together but i think thats rather impossible liao lor. And at 6 plus i oso have to go meet mum for church le. lol... See how lor T.T T.T T.T T.T (kanna splashed by a bucket of cold H2O)

BUT HOR, if tml onli draw for such a small while hor, i would rather not go drawing tomolo!!! then i can enjoy myself at home. HAHAHAHAH !!! There's still many things for me to do anyways! hahaha... actually, i think thats wad im gonna do bah! gotta tell others! Oh Shucks, i forget need to do hw. Hmmm, maybe on9 oso can discuss or something. AIYA.. wadever. anw go library no internet oso cant do hw and library internet is 10 bucks per month lidat T.T last time didnt noe and wasted paying for a few months.

P.S. ohhh... finally noe how to post animated pic liao... haha... just thought of it b4 but nv tried... hahaha

and thennnnnnn..... i was surfing the net and saw this pic........... and thennnnnnnn ............ i was laughing out loud! LOL.... so funny....tickle my funny bone...... ahahahahahahaha..... ahahahahahahahaha.... lol!

Crappy Day

ok! Today is a realli crappy day!!! woke up, on computer and wad! realised so many viruses came to find my com! grrrr... and i finally noe why i kanna auto shutdown ytd le... coz of the viruses! grrrr... and so, until just now, didnt update anything althou wished to. Hmmm... no computer for several hours so i drew something! hehe... lazy scan now... lol...

Tml test le!! haven memorise anything yet!!! no time!!! shucks.... think need to burn midnight oil again as always. But finally finished making all my notes. Write until hand pain T.T I noe i will be very hyped tml becoz no more test at least for now! and im looking forward to saturday's library session with angie and cara. Although we had agreed upon to do our mountainous stack of hw, my mind just wants to draw! ahaha... see how lo. Hope to get started on our projects earlier lo...

Ytd nite was editing my chapter 3. After coming to chapter 2, i didnt realli like how the next part flowed (nt as mysterious as i wanted it to be) so EDIT! and bcoz ytd was quite tired, all my vocabs just flowed like water. Haha... i think chapter 3 would have the most vocab words ever. Lolx... tml den post! look forward to it!

Oh ya... still need to reformat com tml. Just got rid of some of the 79 viruses found today. Some quite sturdy dowan to leave. Dunno lah ... bro say tml den help me reformat coz its time consuming. So can only wait lo. After this, need get my arse back to books liao...


Burried underneath all words, engraving each into my brain. I can do it! YosH!

Waiting Waiting!

oK! here to lor soh agn! today we had a big big break from 2-7!! and i turned up for lecture! haha.... well, you muz be surprised y this slacker is doing in the 5 hr break right? i mean, how could she possible wait 5hr!! [shocked]

Haha... so anyways, to unveil the dark thoughts, here's wad i did. I drew using a mouse on photoshop! wah piang... so difficult to control the mouse and on an unknown surface. haha [coz my mouse at home smoother, not use to angie de AHAHAHA] hahaha... at first did the head and colored it but in the end decided to do the whole body and publish it. Was quite lazy to color the body so mostly used the gradient tool!!! ahahah ... [eeek.. play cheat!] hannah... lol ... so i will be posting it in my deviant art account lo! hahaha ... check it out but here's a quick preview of it bah!! comments comments!!!! more comments!!! ppl dun comment on my deviant art lo... they just add to favourites without commenting... so sianz de neh!!!! i wan to improve more!! so comments are very precious!


P.S b4 i forget, must give thanks to angie for lending me her com for the 4 hrs i worked on this! haha... this is my second time painting on photoshop so muz gimme ur guidiance... hehe... all the feather's are from angie's brushes selection and the rest are done with normal photoshop CS2 functions.

Ok lah ... so on to something which i had meant to publish a long time ago liao!. Haha.. most of you would have done this quiz lah ... haha.. but i still wanna tok about it becoz i realli liked my results. Hehe... This is the quiz which i completed. "Which Clamp Character Are You Most Alike" or something lidat. lol ... i am Fai!!! yippee!!! shuai ge!!! hahaha

Results:
You scored as Fai.
You’re kinda like Fai from Tsubasa! Flamboyant, charismatic maybe a little bit tricky, you don't like letting anyone get too close to you, but you have no problem playing around and having a good time. Generally, your intentions are good – or so you’d like everyone to believe, but it’s quite possible that you have a darker side to you that you have become extremely good at hiding. Just remember that there are people around you that love you. More than you even know…

Fai (92%)
Miyuki-chan (79%)
Kamui (75%)
Hokuto (71%)
Chii (67%)
Sakura (63%)
Watanuki (58%)
Yuuko (54%)
Seishirou (50%)
Kurogane (50%)
Kero-chan (46%)

If you haven tried or would like to retry, here's the link again! http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=303275

haha... i would like to say that this quiz here is actually rather accurate! it would have to depend on the percentage you get thou! haha... for me, im 92% like Fai! ahaha... so the above conclusion is 92% true! lol... not sure abt the other 8% thou... haha...

Oh yea! so finally my photoshop has completed its download! Waited from 10 till 12 man! Still gotta install it! so meanwhile, while waiting AGN!, i shall go edit my chapter 3 and hopefully post it up by today! and i think by this sat will start working on the drawings for the story blog liao le! of course with cara and angie! hahaha ... we will each be in charge of one main char. although perhaps styles would be greatly different, it would be very interesting indeed to see how it turns out to be hor! haha [or else angie will nag agn! lol] Read Read Read and give more comments... Bad ones are more than welcomed. lol... criticise and start up a storm of debate! that would be more interesting... haha