Hime-san no Shiroi Yume, Kuroi Namida

2008-10-07T18:53:00.008+08:00

I'm being killed inside, killed inside out
torrents of things inside my heart burning through just trying to burst through
no way out, there's just no way out
for these things to be unleashed into reality would meant that my world is going down

Im tying to find someone who understands
but everybody is just too damned busy
they get on with their own lives
and everybody just cares for whats within an arm's length.
This is just too pathetic, what human communication has become
Too pathetic, is this wad humans really are?

Im throwing in life's white towel of defeat
Squeezing out all my life's blood and sweat into an emtpy pail and measuring it
I look down but i dun see any at all.

I see ppl endlessly milling about the roads
dragging their heavy legs arnd as they left from work
chatting mindlessly to all these "colleagues"
when they are all just putting on a mask
and when the masquerade ends, all will be lost
and they be lifeless and empty souls left

My life drones on, in a monotone
no colors nor light, its just plain grey dullness
i want a burst of colors, something exciting and new
yet, to those onlookers of society, will they accept me if i do so
Stop it with those stares
Im daring with my creativity flare
Im daring to try these out and live through my dreams but would u say the same for urself!

Be daring and creative you would say but how on earth would u start doing that?
Take the first step someone replies but its just too hard
how many in a million can make it w/o getting those "looks"
Im just me yeah
My lifeless human doll size shell.

aimlessly lost in this frozen space
im just floating in zero gravity
wondering where that will lead me to
im just floating waiting to be free

Crap. im a zombie staring at the mirror.
lifeless black eyeballs staring back right through
Hey is that me? Hello
Hey is that me? Hello [echo]
someone throws that question back and i realise its just my emtpy shell.

I wanna rock on all night yeah
i wanna sing n scream till my throat hurts
i wanna do all those posey and be a doll
n where do i go if i wanna do all that!
Its right here yeah
I'll take u on if u come find me
take u to another level high
live the dreams u've always dreamt
and keep on dreaming

Total Reflection

2008-01-22T22:07:00.001+08:00

well... haven been up here for such a very very long time liao lah ... just finished reviewing frens blog & i gotta say im filled with all types of emotions now. You could say all the sweet, sour, bitter things are intermingled together. Also dunno how to describe this indescribable feeling. Yucksx! For one, haven seen Cara & Angie in a long long while liao... Cara even longer. 'n' they don't even care, as if im invisible 'n' nv existed in the first place. Cara is SOOOO busy with her schoolwork, understandable, but also kinda sad that she didnt even bother catching up with me using msgs. What is your phone for??
Angie is not as close to me now like b4. Made me think back of all those schooldays where we were just laughing all the time, making fun of each others n stuff. She now has her kailing jie jie whose name would always be hanging by her mouth liao. Whenever by chance the 3 of us would be tgt, i always feel so left out. That's y it also made me think about my decision to go AH work. Imagine if im going to work with them and feel all the more left out by them. I would've rather went to another place where there is no them and feel lonely through there instead. The thing with whether its working in AH or in polyclinic, i am neutral. There are pros & cons in each place. 'N' i nv rejected your proposal straight down at your face, not so much as you think with this kinda phrasing. I've also thought about it b4. The reason y the talk with Claud made me waver so much is becoz number 1: when you say that AH is hiring, there is no 100% that they will hire me compared to 100& being offered a place at poly. When a 100% offer comes along, of coz you would grab it liao lor. Number 2: i've only been in AH for less than a month 'n' in satellite no less. How are you going to make me choose compared to 3months full in poly(Clementi). Lets go back to the topic. You all go fo tang, thats fine, but i will feel left out but i cant go. I feel paranoid. I feel that you all have been going out having fun by yourselves without asking me along. I really feel distant. Whenever i tok to angie or hear her voice, i get the feeling that she's bored 'n' wants to get over my part n quickly tok to kailing instead.I missed my school days where there are tonnes of interactions, not just with close frens. Even a smile with someone not realli close to you feels so warm now. In working environments, a smile seems so fake. People who you think you might be closer with are actually the most distant creatures. Now that i've been left with 1 night left b4 i go give my answer to claud, i don't know what to think anymore. Sure i would agree that working in a place with frens would be greatly fun but i fear the opposite.
JieYing lei JieYing, my close close fren + almost neighbours + sister like sister. Where hath thou gone to. Gone with the wind? No sound nor silent footsteps.
Gyahhh! working life is boring. God please fill my life with bliss. !Amen!

Suddenly Down

2008-01-10T00:30:00.001+08:00

sudden rush of poetry from my mind... and here goes

Vast and empty as it seems
Silent be on silence's stream
Drop of naturalle into thee
Pindrops fallen sound it seemed
Passing gush hails into none
Still a standing, one tree alone

None of light can shine thru thee
Still hopes flickering on the edge
Wonders never are as wonders weep
Wonderful it seemed but so deceit
Softly, gently, cuddle me
As i lay deep into sleep

Yours Truly,
Terralyte

MY PEACEFUL DAYS LEFT!!

2007-06-22T01:36:00.000+08:00

GAHHHHH!!! DUN COME DISTURB ME... BITE UR HEAD OFF!

Hey, time passes too fast le lah... the last time i blogged was like ytd to me T.T and next week is exam week liao! ack!! :X think can one week of stressful, overload week again lah.... nvm.. at least its one week. Then i can rest for the weekends at least.Im taking time off TRICKSTER now and perhaps i will return after the exams. See how first. LOL... and now im totalli into anime watching, drawing and painting!! ahahaha... alamak... tt would be 6 works i haven publish yet :X no time to upload and the scanner is in the other room T.T hahaha... so after exam week den upload all at once le.... ehehehe ....

Today i painted a human! lol.. with water colors of course and i traced it with the calligraphy pen. Hmmm... realli took me quite some time coz im not quite sure about the shadows for the face and the lightings. The hair was actualli easy...lol ... and the shirt was difficult becoz i didnt have the intention to add it on at first. So it was draw by brush and bcoz it was such a big area, the shading for it was realli quite troublesome. Total in all i painted for like 4 hrs lidat starting from 3-7.30 bah ... hahhaha... hmmm ... quite pleased... :D hehehe ...

Now im waiting for my anime to load sia... crunchyroll dun have so gotta go stage 6 and veoh video network. Their loading time takes such a long long while its a pain in the arse... hahaha ... faster faster!! hayaku hayaku!! Hmmm... and i dun even noe the timetable for the subjects yet, the subjects tested and all the tips!! gosh ... and 2 subjects per day sia... can die le... or should i say, dunno how to die liao .. :X T.T (lazy to find pictures put sia T.T) and this time all the pictures i found are all death like becoz of the death week next week T.T wanna escape from hell!

oh yes... want to recommend cara an anime called Zero no Tsukaima!! hahah... when she drop by then she see lah ... or i think seldom hardly anyone visit oso le ... hehhe ... anw... its magical, comedy and witches and wizards. Realli funny but some might not realli like the main character becoz she is 'quite' noisy lah ... lol ... hmmm ... there are more but this is the one i like best outta the few i watched this time round. Its onli 13 episodes also.. so no big harm done XD

KAIRU!!! TADAIMA!!!

2007-06-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

hehehe... so long nv come le hor... ahaha ... well .. for the past 2 weeks, me and angie and gang is chionging our game. TRICKSTER on9... hahaha ... ok ... so i job change to my magician liao and now am at lvl 58 but training is quite slow lei ... dunno lah ... feel that way ... haha ... so getting tired ... not much new place to venture lei ...all either too high lvl le or too noob liao ... hmmmm ... gang on me i will die de... coz ima mage with onli 1.4k life... they critical me i jiat lat.

Hehehe... today went shopping and also brought my art supplies liao!! ^^ hahaha "I JUST SAVED 20% ON MY ART SUPPLIES!!" tt's wad im shouting now overthere... hahaha ... can paint le... yesh ...but brought a wrong watercolor lah ... awwww... need to rebuy. Brushes, palate, markers all set! hehe ... and im not lazy these 2 weeks ok!! i got draw! ahaha ... i drew 5 pieces of chibis onli lah ... haha ... so kawaii! and my chibis is bettter than that first one liao ... lol .... will post on DA some days to come so go check it out... hehehe ... wad did i draw... i drew a fanart for TRICKSTER... my own created characters... some chibis in traditional clothes... snow gal... well ..think these are the pieces to look forward to bah ... one piece is on lots of chibis faces...thats just to help me draw chibi faces better since i suck at them.. lol ... but overall got some i rather like... hehehe

OH ya... brought the calligraphy pen liao ... very fun i tell ya! haha... the strokes are awesome... will test it out on my real drawing real soon!! hehehe .... but not now... im damn tired now sia... walk all day and sleep little... lol ... gg watch anime le ... title? its quite new and im onli starting on epi 1 so i shall update again if it is nice bah .... hehehe .... got lots of bishies again! hehe...

Exams coming!!! -_-!!! sianz half half... but think some subjects onli testing for 2 weeks worth of stuff so its still POSSIBLE!!! haha. Well so, exam = stress and if u come disturb a sleeping dragon, the above will happen to u!! ahaha ... i'll bite ur hand off... LOL.... for ppl who don't noe, hunny kun is biting on tamaki's hand! ahahha .. FROM OURAN! funny show... gotta catch it!! ahahaha

OMG.... body already sleeping mode liao.... lol ... and the weather is cold.. hope to snuggle up in bed soon! TML KBOX SESSION at my house!!! ahahaha. with my mei mei and jie ying :D so happy ... lol ... haven do my song yet T.T Heard from jieying that her brother go and buy another 4 electric guitar sia... siao ... now he has 5...i expect one of them to be bass thou... couldnt have so many varieties for electric guitar right? hmmm .... hehe...tml den decide whether we are gonna do song or not bah .... lol ... ^^^^AHEM AHEM COUGH COUGH^^^

M.I.A

2007-06-04T11:23:00.000+08:00

ahhh! MIA for so long le... lol ... well, its obvious, if im MIA in DA... that means i will be MIA here... Ok! so lets see! ... hmmm ... for the past few days, wad i have been doing neh. Firstly, im watching anime, so no time blog! ahahaha ... wad have i watched? oh shats! i forgot le... T.T okok ... saw my favourites and remembered. Im watching Harukanaru Toki no Nakede Hachiyosho in crunchyroll.com. LOL... this show is very similar to fushigi but the animation and quality is better. Its onli 26 episode thou and thus wont be draggy budden horrr.... the ending is a bit rushed and i didnt get to see my bishy that much T.T but there are many other eye candies lah ... ahahha ... Then i went on to watch Kaze no Stigma! damn funny i tell ya... lol ... and its released in april 2007. So its quite new. Hmmmm... and then, angie asked me to play Trickster Online and thus, im starting it le.. Onli lvled to lvl 9. Im playing a light/dark mage more towards the dark side thou coz i planted in the wrong stats at first... One small difference can differ a lot! lol ... And i've also spotted many other animes to watch!!! hahaha... now im very into those historical and olden setting de... dunno y? or those clan fight clan de.... ahaha ... sugoi!! Today's school is from 1-6 non-stop neh!! OMGOSH! think im gonna faint! and die of hunger! T.T So gotta prepare lots of paper to prepare to draw neh! and ya .. i've been wanting to draw a chained heart but firstly, i dunno how to draw a real heart yet! :X Gotta find pictures (gross) And toking abt gross, well, my father's brother just passed away on 2nd june. Went to his funeral (christian style) on 3rd june which was my mum's bdae... so didnt celebrate hers lo. And i saw the corpse lying in the coffin. :X It was realli scary i tell u. Ther person is lying there so still and the skin so plastiky. And the face looks a bit bloated oso de... And then, its like, when i go near the coffin, i can smell the wood and some other smell oso lei ... I think its the chemical they injected into him to preserve him for a few days :X and then at night my mum told me stories about y my cousins and their relatives had to stay over at that place. It was said that if a cat jumps over the coffin, the corpse would sit upright and start to grab something. It wont stop grabbing at something until it finally catches hold of something. And once it catches hold, it will no longer let go of that object. Imagine if its a person nearby! :X and the reason y the body will sit up is becoz the corpse is full of negative energy whereas the cat is positive energy. Therefore, magnetic field will pull it up. :x Den i asked why wont it happen if we're near it coz we're also living and of positive force? Haha..mama say she's not sure but if these type of stories are there, there should be cases happening b4 right. :x So ya... T.T Rest In Piece my very kind and nice uncle T.T Ok lah ... im typing in it like one whole big chunk so just gorge ur eyes out to read. No time liao ... schooling time!!! need to hurry! late again liao le lah ... anw... i want to watercolor painting and on sat b4 church and after my proj meeting, i had like 2.5 hours to spare to rot alone. And i went to woodlands popular and rotted there for the whole time. OK lah.. not whole time, i rotted there for like 1.5 hours coz mum said to meet me at woodlands to eat lo since they had at first intended to eat at house downstairs there de. LOL.... so yah... wad did i do in Woodlands Popular???? i went to the art section and browsed all the watercolor paints (price range is quite big u noe. Can range from 18 tubes cheap cheap 3+ to 18 tubes very expensive de 13+) Those cheap de of coz from china de lor... hahaha ... and the X ones are from japan de. Hmmm.. dunno which to buy. Saw the brushes and found one which wasnt too x like wad i used im my sec school de but also not lan until those brushes hard like hell de.. Intend to buy that lo. And i looked at the calligraphy pen (trying to test out their effects since mangaka uses them) . Also saw a liner which was just 1+ bucks neh... lol.... signo de.. so oso intend to buy that. Hmm... lets seee wad else.... Browsed many pens and art crafts there lah... gotta say although JE de is as big as Woodlands de, JE de art supply is so lil compared to Woodlands de so if u wanna get art stuff, gotta go WDL de lo... :) Haha... and i got the 20% discount for all items so intend to decide carefully, save up a bit more capital and buy it at one go! lol .... heng got the 20% de sia. Oh yah ...and IMM there got popular liao le... Haven visit... wonder how it is like. Hmmmm .... well will visit it sometimes de lah ... hahhaha .... Oh no! so should i buy the xpensive watercolor or the cheap one?

P.S. the cheap tubes are 12 ml de tubes lor and the xpensive ones are onli like 5ml tubes... T.T ... if i have time tonight, i will come and reorganise this piece of essay but if not then u will noe that im playing trickster lo... haha... WHO WANT PLAY!! COME AND JOIN!! HEHEHHEE .... my mage lvling alone is realli damn slow lor.. and i want my invincible casting so that monster hit me wont cancel out my spell T.T so u noe y im so slow now. Still need 3 TM lvl to get that spell sia.... gahhh

Rock Fest!

2007-05-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

ahahaha... rock fest? wazzup with that? lol ... aiyah ... just now when i was bathing, i sang again. I always sing lah... but i always just use wadever words that came up and any tune that came up to my mind to sing. Therefore, u can guess its incomprehensible but the tune is realli great OK! coz i noe my own voice range and wad pitch my voice is most beautiful lah ... OHOHOHOHO...

so yup... got this craze to go back to my singing career (like real :X) haha... wad do i mean by that? that is to cre8 my own music. How do i do that? ok... firstly, i come up with either the tune or the lyrics first. Then, i use my keyboard and find the single tune first. Then i incorporate the two finger style in. And then, i will ask my mei mei do the other voice tune. Oso gotta teach her and find the tune first. Then, we will have a dry run and usually its usually screwed up coz i had to play the keyboard and sing. Difficult to coordinate sia! :X so well.. we always did it halfway and that can take up one whole day liao! hahaha... so sometimes when we are realli bored we pass time like that in the past... Hmmm... so anw, my fren who lives downstairs has also acquired a keyboard le so now got 2 keyboards and one more person maybe can do better. BUT NOW THE PROBLEM IS! MY KEYBOARD IS NOT AT MY HOUSE!!! alamak... think need to get it back from my aunt who borrowed it for her kids who's so lucky to be going to guitar, piano lessons T.T i want oso cant... my mama lah ... mai mo wo de tian cai. T.T ok... b4 i was into drawing, music was my forte! haha... and i have also cre8ted my own classical piece b4. Went into 4 mins le but haven complete yet oso T.T lol .... and my fren living downstairs has a brother who also noes how to play guitar and electric guitar... haha... hmmm... realli hoped to ask him join in but he now in army T.T hehe... last time he actually asked me to be in his "band" with his frens b4 coz they looking for a keyboardist but i so shy .... :X ahahahah ... my younger dreams... lol ... So anw back to the topic! i think i realli want to cre8 a song man... lol... gotta ask for talents le and since holiday coming soon, i think it will be very highly possible to get one done unless i have to do projects during holidays lo!! which i just got reminded in the bathroom just now when i thought of this splendid plans T.T oh yah ... last time i oso cre8ted a 2 versed song le but its just the lyrics and the tune w/o any accompanyment. (errr.. dunno how to spell :O) yay! looking forward to it anw... OHOHO...

Ok.. so i didnt go do my project today coz i had serious stomach problems. We worked from home instead and i was in charge of editing angie de ppt slides... hmmm... ok lah .. gotta keep rechecking the journal paper and keep rushing to the toilet so took 2 hours T.T oh yah ... and poor angie is sick again!!! muz be the virus from last time de lor... lol ... she nv go see doctor lah! and kp oso nv take her there :X and for the morning is toileting time. YAY! so after 3, finished the project, i watched anime until now and still wanna continue it lo... LOL... its CODE GEASS! i mentioned it b4. Its by CLAMP and the storyline is realli dark! think can ask cara go see... lol .... i watched until epi 20 le... today onli watched like 10 epi lidat... haha... so yupx.. im going back to it now liao! ahaha .... ciao!!! oh yah .. still gotta add pictures :C

p.s. oh yah ... and now hor... getting quite bored of DA lah... coz i got not much inspiration and the pageviews and stuff dowan to increase as much. That time when i posted all my past linearts a lot of ppl come... tt's y now quite sianz... think got superb idea den put le bah ... and i think im doing bad for backgrounds. Looks a bit still and stiff... Not good at it yet... lol ... oh yah ..haha...to rebuke cara's tag. hmmm... i think if u have learnt drawing b4 and drew constantly whether its anything, drawing anime is no problem coz ur arm is already used to drawing strokes and stuff. You know, i read b4 that for drawing, its not using ur wrist lei... you should actually move ur whole shoulder. Dunno how to do that thou but i think as u draw more u will get it le... ahaha (some tips for angie! :D)

ooooo... found a shuai ge anime pic (above) (drools) wah.. see le feel like drawing that type of all blackie stuff.. lol ... oh yah .. and that reminded me... that day at popular i saw this calligraphy pen. Its 3.30 for the one with both thin and thick tips and another one which is 1.90. Dunno whicih one to buy sia... coz i noe that calligraphy pen is used to draw manga... haha... so wanted to try out one to see whether it realli has nice effects on drawing. doshiyo? which one should i buy?? LOL.

Human flaws---PMS week

2007-05-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

ok... y the hell is my topic so controversial? heheh ... nth much actually... just wanna tok about some feelings that overcame me the other days.. haha...

firstly is about DA! first feeling! ok... i have always admired cara's unique sense of drawing lah seriously. I mean i dun see that type of drawing anywhere else and i oso dunno how she could always draw with her style. I think my style is more common like than hers so i dun pretty much like it. Though i tried to develope my own style, i still think its quite a way from realli finding one unique one which belog solely to me. Haha... so as u can guess, my admiration turns to jealousy T.T haha... ok... how did i find out? haha... you know cara also created a DA account on the same day as me? hahaha ... and i was jealous coz her pageviews are many much more than. yup... T.T so i was quite depressed as well. But den i told myself that its wierd coz it doesnt tally much. I mean many ppl came by to her page but there wasnt much comments from them. Like how can it be possible i wondered to myself. Haha... my form of consolation. So then i refreshed again and found out that hey! another increased in 3 pageviews including my re-entrance... so became quite quite depressed... so rant on and on to angie :X poor angie... haha... ears rotten....lol ... and she sick sommore... ahhahaha... gomen :D However, after ranting out, i felt much better le... hehe... and today was completely cured le lah ... OHOHOHO.... and also found out that cara had commented on some pieces... so touched T.T and i thought she wouldnt care much and don't give a heck about commenting T.T So now to comfort myself more, i said to myself. Her artwork and mine are totally and completely different so we cant compare it. I might add say that her clothes are much more complicated than mine but i can say i noe how to draw hands better (mwhahah) so its realli hard. And wad cara said on DA is true, like how every piece of art is beautiful in its on way. T.T and yah.. to comfort myself more.. haha... she learnt drawing when she was young and she drew quite often. I think she also won some prize in her sec school days if im not wrong... and oh yah! she draws animals so well manx... i cant :C haha... so she is many times my senior since i had onli learn to draw well 2 yrs ago. Hmmm... last time my art was nice becoz it was damn colorful lah ... lol... so yup... muz rant it out one last time to forgo the feelings... YOSH!

so next up! the next feeling due to PMS... lol.... realli cant stand this week much man!! got project need next week hand in and we haven even touched on it yet! OMGOSH! and hor... this week got so much damn hws lor! OMGOSH! everyday when i get home, im already so washed out and tired up that i cant even open my eyes liao lah ... realli so tired... so gotta resort to copying hw in school. Although wanted to skip lesson today, circumstances stopped me from it becoz if lidat hor, den dunno how im gonna hand up hw le and nothing to copy from, and qian too much hw until i will lost track whad is wat. GOSH! tml vesak day oso cant rest! friday still got another pile of hw to hand in T.T omgosh! i want to faint. Therefore, this week im very pek cek and easily irritated plus come that thing and gotta do so many things is realli a pain in the arse manx T.T i wanna take my 2 weeks break now!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhh!!!!!!!! and i so want to finish my sadistic angel piece lor!!!!!!!! and my table is a mess coz its strewn with color pencils and marker!!!!!!! cant even find a spot to eat and do my things!!!!! still gotta pack!!!!!! argghhhhhh...

Im running outta anime pics to put liao lah .. T.T and its already 5!!!! so late!!!! no more time to enjoy liao lah ... :X but today was also happy coz someone has added me into their gallery... as in that person will choose some nice works of mine to feature there. Wootz! i had already declined once le lah ... but the person say dun underestimate myself and added me. lol... well... hope not to disappoint the person then. Hmmm....haha... he/she oso quite became my penpal in DA le... haha... yupz... :D

Concluding

2007-05-28T10:35:00.000+08:00

oki... so many things for me to conclude!!! gahhh.... lets start with the poll on ur right first... hmmm... couldnt get 10 votes as per expected so yah... wadever... lol ... the results are as follows: 1 vote:10-30, 3 votes for 30-50 and 4 votes for >100. Well, the correct answer is.... (drum rolls) >100!!!!! ahahaha.... the last time i counted which was very well one yr ago, i had already reached 70 animes... lol.... yup! surprised hor... and how the hell do u think u are accurate?! tt's bcoz, for every anime that i have watched, i will go dl their song. LOL... and tt time my mp4 is onli like arnd 2.8GB occupied. Now, my mp4 is left with arnd 500MB nia outta the 6GB! O.o!!! Haha... of coz its not all totally jap and my mei mei also dumped in lots of chinese songs but i can say that up to 75% of my mp4 is jap songs... LOL..

and another conclusion, if ppl dun understand ur story, its quite depressing actually when it is said into ur face T.T hmmm... the story i have written is not like a story for story books. Its actually written in script form so u have the actions and the narrative part. For these types of writing, u have to totally imagine out the whole play urself using ur imaginative mind. Briefly scanning thru it or just anyhow reading it will get u nowhere.

So yupz... tt time when to library to draw it our but turns out the artist herself dun even understand wad im writing. and angie de bf oso say he dun understand. So in the end i wasnt in the mood for drawing that piece and thought maybe im gonna do it myself in the end... haha... cara did say she was having a headache and such budden she read the story b4 le lah ... muz be just scanning then. :S ... well, pardon me if u read this post coz i will post wad im thnking w/o a care in the world de... hohohoho.... so u see me straight with my thought s usually.

So yup... realli disappointed!! so angie is the onli one who is my fan for the story perhaps and plus xcatcatx(PKO fren) hahaha... pumpkin families!!!! except for papa pumpkin, enjoyed the story....hahaha.... up till now, nth has actually started yet and i noe its gonna be quite boring if i dragged it on so next chapter, i will be introducing many many more characters already (plus angie de noisy char!) ahahaha (ping, piang, pomp) see lah .. she hitting me agnT.T

anyways, we sketched out the general guideline for the prelude le and it was realli onli 2 sides of one paper nia lor! omgosh... so short... :X and im now working on another art piece liao le (T.T the gal's eyes is wrong!!! budden i dun wan to redraw!!!)... hohoh... sort de... hw piled up so much but haven touched a bit sia... haha... now is the climax for my artwork publishing i guess... haha.... and realli happy coz i have only been in DA for like 1 week including today and the ratings are as below: 14 Deviations(art pieces) with 23 comments, 68 pageviews, my 14 deviations has a total of 174 views(weeeeeee!!!) and 3 ppl watches me grow as an artist! Statistics are as this morning and ur viewing counts as well. If i visit my own page, i cannot add to the total views. When cara wasnt on9 and i had nth better to do, i visited her page several times a day and keep going back to see her redeemer lor... nth in there le.... :X

Hehehe... its realli fun to see them grow in nos. i mean the total views... haha... when i had 12 deviations, there was 120 views ... hehehe... muz be all thnks to u ppl...hoho... and i realli dunno y my mysterious angel is popular. That was a piece frm way way back T.T and i post way too many angels i guess. The piece im working on is yet of another angel le T.T hahaha... i love all my angels! they all have beautiful wings!! (sniggers) ... ahh crap... gonna be late for school liao!!!! bye! and i think l8r come home den post more pictures to beautify this post.

Alamak!

2007-05-27T19:31:00.000+08:00

omgosh.... diarrhoeing coz i ate something unclean from pasah malam... zzzzzzzz.... was so happy and excited today de coz i have just finished coloring my shadowless gothika but den came my diarrhoea T.T ahhh.. wadever... it will stop soon since diarrhoea is self-limiting... no energy to type le lah ... lol

Anyways, today i spent 4.5 hrs to complete that gothika piece man. Haha... dunno how to get about coloring the background coz it was too big for color pencil liao and den dun have any poster or watercolor with me. So ya... tt's y.... in the end i resorted to scrubbing off my finger skin cells. LOL.... dun wanna retype wad i did so just check out my DA. lol....

This time crazy about chibi drawings le...ahaha ... drew one ytd... like it... but upon reviewing it again today, didnt like it liao...haha... not as cute as i wanted it to be... will try harder next time and make kawaii chibi's. First time a failure is all good... haha ...

lol... this is just a very cute chibi sasuke i found on DA... hahaha

Aye... dun wanna do hw lah ... zzzz... so sianzzz.. but thnk heaven tml 1pm den school... at least can wake up earlier to complete... haha ...

Oh ya, cara oso has a DA accound liao le... FeelMySoul... haha.. go check her art out too and increase her pageviews and artviewed nos. With her art skills, i think she can be famous realli soon! ahaha... if she is not lazy and consistently post lah.... lol.... and ppl do like photoshop stuff more... lol ... I WANT MY PHOTOSHOP so i can do many many effects for my characters T.T the last time i did de was abit childish lah coz i used quite loud colors... lol... sorry... im quite a loud person and the colors i choose are of course like me...lol... not gonna post my painted drawing here le .... haha ...

ATSUI!!

2007-05-26T12:18:00.000+08:00

WAH LAO !!! so hottt!!! its sweltering hot!!! omgosh!!! i think it is a good idea to run to the library for the cold cold air con today. My air-con sort le lah ... and if i on my air con, my brother is gonna be the one to get a heat stroke bcoz the air vent is beside the window he is working from. Crap! ahhhhh... cant stand another second liao lah .....

oki.. i've uploaded this today!! woohooo.... my new edited version and i pretty much like this one here! hehe

Pls comment ty!

Thats all for this morning bah.... when im back, i will post more. Going to the library to draw afterall. Dunno lei... not much in the feel to draw oso... haha... will bring my markers there so i can paint. Or else oso can draw wad ah bui asked me to draw....haha.... The theme: "A person with a happy face but who hides lots of secret". Hmmm... got a general idea liao ... haha... look forward to it bah!! and if u want me to draw anything for u, u can also post the theme here. The drawings will be sent to u but they will definitely go into my DA account... haha... so yupx... dun flood me... i cant work many pieces at once... :D

11.10pm
Just came back and my mei mei showed me a video about singapore! Its so damn funny! haha.. ur should go view the video at least 2 times... hahahaha ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ch-z5s2JabY

DEFINTELY MUZ GO SEE K!! AHAHA :D

OHOHOHO! YATTA NEH!

2007-05-25T18:23:00.000+08:00

YESH! finally pharmco test owarita!!!! HOHOHOHO... and hor... ppl complain my blog very noisy..... So i gotta change it le. Coz i find it noisy myself (sniggers) so now, the "Playlist" is set to play if you click and its on auto shuffle mode. There's a total of 15 songs which are currently in my favourites. There're more in my mp3 playlist of the season thou... haha... if you want to noe wad im currently into, you could just get prepared, lower down ur vol. and listen in peace. HAHAHAHAHA...

next up, i think no need REFORMAT com liao!! ahaha... when i switch on com today, there was no more stupid pop ups and the com was running rather smoothly. Dunno lah ... monitor for a few more days to decide coz i didnt save my current wallpaper and i realli like it alot T.T cant find back liao.

Hmmmm... I WANT PHOTOSHOP! think will have to go find CS3 to dl and find the hack le... hehehehe (evil laughs). So what i will be doing today... im gonna scan wad i drew ytd in and update on DA. check it out! there will be a color version but maybe it will come later. I also tried drawing a gothic gal ytd nite. Lol, will scan in after adding her background. Drawing with a thick pen realli is tough. Also, chapter 3 of the story is supposed to be out today too. Hahaha... Supposed ah... dunno if im too tired or wadsoever or decided to color my drawings instead... hahaha.... cheers!

Hmmm... quite disappointed about tml lah (realli looked forward to the drawing day coz of the stress buildup).. coz one morn cannot, one night cannot, den in the end cant draw much le. Was looking forward to drawing a whole tonnes of pictures together but i think thats rather impossible liao lor. And at 6 plus i oso have to go meet mum for church le. lol... See how lor T.T T.T T.T T.T (kanna splashed by a bucket of cold H2O)

BUT HOR, if tml onli draw for such a small while hor, i would rather not go drawing tomolo!!! then i can enjoy myself at home. HAHAHAHAH !!! There's still many things for me to do anyways! hahaha... actually, i think thats wad im gonna do bah! gotta tell others! Oh Shucks, i forget need to do hw. Hmmm, maybe on9 oso can discuss or something. AIYA.. wadever. anw go library no internet oso cant do hw and library internet is 10 bucks per month lidat T.T last time didnt noe and wasted paying for a few months.

P.S. ohhh... finally noe how to post animated pic liao... haha... just thought of it b4 but nv tried... hahaha

and thennnnnnn..... i was surfing the net and saw this pic........... and thennnnnnnn ............ i was laughing out loud! LOL.... so funny....tickle my funny bone...... ahahahahahahaha..... ahahahahahahahaha.... lol!

Crappy Day

2007-05-24T20:20:00.000+08:00

ok! Today is a realli crappy day!!! woke up, on computer and wad! realised so many viruses came to find my com! grrrr... and i finally noe why i kanna auto shutdown ytd le... coz of the viruses! grrrr... and so, until just now, didnt update anything althou wished to. Hmmm... no computer for several hours so i drew something! hehe... lazy scan now... lol...

Tml test le!! haven memorise anything yet!!! no time!!! shucks.... think need to burn midnight oil again as always. But finally finished making all my notes. Write until hand pain T.T I noe i will be very hyped tml becoz no more test at least for now! and im looking forward to saturday's library session with angie and cara. Although we had agreed upon to do our mountainous stack of hw, my mind just wants to draw! ahaha... see how lo. Hope to get started on our projects earlier lo...

Ytd nite was editing my chapter 3. After coming to chapter 2, i didnt realli like how the next part flowed (nt as mysterious as i wanted it to be) so EDIT! and bcoz ytd was quite tired, all my vocabs just flowed like water. Haha... i think chapter 3 would have the most vocab words ever. Lolx... tml den post! look forward to it!

Oh ya... still need to reformat com tml. Just got rid of some of the 79 viruses found today. Some quite sturdy dowan to leave. Dunno lah ... bro say tml den help me reformat coz its time consuming. So can only wait lo. After this, need get my arse back to books liao...

Burried underneath all words, engraving each into my brain. I can do it! YosH!

Waiting Waiting!

2007-05-24T00:02:00.001+08:00

oK! here to lor soh agn! today we had a big big break from 2-7!! and i turned up for lecture! haha.... well, you muz be surprised y this slacker is doing in the 5 hr break right? i mean, how could she possible wait 5hr!! [shocked]

Haha... so anyways, to unveil the dark thoughts, here's wad i did. I drew using a mouse on photoshop! wah piang... so difficult to control the mouse and on an unknown surface. haha [coz my mouse at home smoother, not use to angie de AHAHAHA] hahaha... at first did the head and colored it but in the end decided to do the whole body and publish it. Was quite lazy to color the body so mostly used the gradient tool!!! ahahah ... [eeek.. play cheat!] hannah... lol ... so i will be posting it in my deviant art account lo! hahaha ... check it out but here's a quick preview of it bah!! comments comments!!!! more comments!!! ppl dun comment on my deviant art lo... they just add to favourites without commenting... so sianz de neh!!!! i wan to improve more!! so comments are very precious!

P.S b4 i forget, must give thanks to angie for lending me her com for the 4 hrs i worked on this! haha... this is my second time painting on photoshop so muz gimme ur guidiance... hehe... all the feather's are from angie's brushes selection and the rest are done with normal photoshop CS2 functions.

Ok lah ... so on to something which i had meant to publish a long time ago liao!. Haha.. most of you would have done this quiz lah ... haha.. but i still wanna tok about it becoz i realli liked my results. Hehe... This is the quiz which i completed. "Which Clamp Character Are You Most Alike" or something lidat. lol ... i am Fai!!! yippee!!! shuai ge!!! hahaha

Results:
You scored as Fai.
You’re kinda like Fai from Tsubasa! Flamboyant, charismatic maybe a little bit tricky, you don't like letting anyone get too close to you, but you have no problem playing around and having a good time. Generally, your intentions are good – or so you’d like everyone to believe, but it’s quite possible that you have a darker side to you that you have become extremely good at hiding. Just remember that there are people around you that love you. More than you even know…

Fai (92%)
Miyuki-chan (79%)
Kamui (75%)
Hokuto (71%)
Chii (67%)
Sakura (63%)
Watanuki (58%)
Yuuko (54%)
Seishirou (50%)
Kurogane (50%)
Kero-chan (46%)

If you haven tried or would like to retry, here's the link again! http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=303275

haha... i would like to say that this quiz here is actually rather accurate! it would have to depend on the percentage you get thou! haha... for me, im 92% like Fai! ahaha... so the above conclusion is 92% true! lol... not sure abt the other 8% thou... haha...

Oh yea! so finally my photoshop has completed its download! Waited from 10 till 12 man! Still gotta install it! so meanwhile, while waiting AGN!, i shall go edit my chapter 3 and hopefully post it up by today! and i think by this sat will start working on the drawings for the story blog liao le! of course with cara and angie! hahaha ... we will each be in charge of one main char. although perhaps styles would be greatly different, it would be very interesting indeed to see how it turns out to be hor! haha [or else angie will nag agn! lol] Read Read Read and give more comments... Bad ones are more than welcomed. lol... criticise and start up a storm of debate! that would be more interesting... haha

For Tomolo! hehe...

2007-05-22T22:30:00.000+08:00

Aiya! Post for tml oso lah! since will be having night lesson from 7-9. Come home already 10.30 so wont be posting le bah. I scrolled through my blog and realised there are no pictures! again all words.... fed up... haha... so now im gonna put some pic of my last outting bah. Zzzzz... next time i noe, after every post there will be pictures!!! ahaha.... still new to blogging so haven gotten my sense of style yet. Juz bear with it! ahahaha ... yeps.. ganbai!

Title: KBox Outing! Princess singers!

So after this, i realli got nth to do and i dun feel like watching anime and i dun feel like studying so i go upload my Chapter 2 of my story! ahahaha .... eeekkkssss... i want pictures!!! cara!!! draw some!!! angie too!!! or else all words my eyes will roll by itself liao. :X den if i ever get bored le i would long long long long time oso not come here le. But if i still draw, i will come. But actually for now i still have many many tonnes of things i still wanna write down. Haha :X

Matta~!

2007-05-22T15:21:00.001+08:00

again im here to post! Y? coz today i whole day at home! and kanna addicted to blogging ... haha (words onli a noob will say lol :X) y i didnt blog last time? well i did considered it in sec school budden hor... found it so boring. Now its different, i can share more things here and make it more interesting for u, soooo ......

ok... so now currently my favourite song would be Hanafubuki by Acid from Tokyo Majin Kempuchou! very nice anime!! haha... onli watched until ep 10 coz i hated to wait for each episode to come out each month. However, i recently found out from a fren that 1st season is completed and 2nd season is already coming out O.O

Ahaha... just now chatted with baka angie! We so confused over our every changing timetable!!!! KNS! lol oppx. so now settled liao... phew...hahahaha... as usual aunty very noisy!__(sounds of bashing---pomp ---- pheeeewwwuuu ----piang) ok lah ... bubbly lor! ahahaha.... (shhhh)

although its the same day, i didnt want to edit my post again. Super long lei! ahaha.... l8r ppl see liao oso dowan read T.T dun read nvm... muz checkout my cre8tions neh!!! NEH!!!!

Yatta Neh!

2007-05-22T10:59:00.000+08:00

Yea! finally everything is set and done for this blog :))) The above signature is one which i found on google so is kopped from other ppl w/o their permission de (shhhh) but it is so beautiful that i would sacrifice it for my blog title. So now, u have to place the cursor over the sig to see my blog title liao T.T

Today morn pon EBM! V tired! hahaha... but cham... i cant pon anymore le or else fail le. Who ask them to put so many 2 credits module this sem!!! 2 credits means one can onli pon 4 hrs. (hehehe ... calculated coz im a pon queen. ahem ... not porn.. thanks :P LOL... and wad did i do the whole morning? Working on my blog of course! and now we have the results! TADAAA!

Actually it was so simple budden dunno why my brain think until so complicated. LoL ... all's well that ends well i guess. Still need to do all these for my story blog! arghhh... nvm nvm ... plenty of time! Tonight still need go night class. 6-8! T.T Pretty mah pretty mah the blog? although i had wanted to do all the background myself but no tyme! Ciao!

1.52pm
Yosh! haha... updated deviant art account le! hehe... new entries of my self owned drawings! actually wanted to study but ended up playing around with my computer instead. lol...

Let's talk a bit about glas smask anime. Hmmm.. since i already read the manga, the anime became quite predictable so i stopped. Haha. SO NOW ONTO Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion by CLAMP! haha... nice nice. interesting plot and beautiful characters (other than the super long limbs) as usual. hehe

P.S. OK! one of the drawings i uploaded to deviant art! hehe... interested pls visit link ---> lol ... i realli like this one... haha

Tired Tired

2007-05-21T18:33:00.000+08:00

Ahahaha.... so tired. I doing my other blog do until wan tuxue lah... im v noob so cant be helped. However, you can access my other Story blog from my profile there. LOL... so until i put up my links, if you want, you can take a look there. ALTHOUGH i mus warn that there are tonnes of words there! lol... have patience have patience! lol ... and i wouldnt want to post any other irrelevant stuff there so i would have to state it here. €

The person's thought are bracketed with //".... "// and when the person speaks out loud, it would be just the usual " ." Hehe. And finally, you would see [...] That would be the narrator's dialogue. Actions are also used with that becoz i couldn't use <>!! crap!... i typed all my text with all actions and narrator's dialogue using <> and in the end had to go and edit all! Also, i had used he-him instead of her-she for the script and had to go change it all!!!! gahhhhh.... tml den continue a bit more perhaps.

Got Pharmaco test! Shucks! Need study! Shucks! dun care first! Ok!

Go watch a few episode of glass mask anime le. Interesting story but animation a bit sub par. But it is way way way better than the manga which actually had awful drawing. It was drawn in the 1970's if im not wrong... haha... imagine!

Hajimeru!

2007-05-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

Well well, what have we here. A noob!!! hahaha... its not that i have never cre8ted a blog b4, but just that it was for personal use. No need to make a hassle out of it being pretty or not, colourful or whatsoever. HOWEVER!!! I recently found back the joy of writing such long, naggy and wonderful essays! Hahaha! These days are just boring as hell. Nothing much to empty my brain for other than tests of course Enjoyment is a must! and i must enjoy for at least 80% of a day! hehe. What is the other 20% for u ask? Well, isn't that a tad bit obvious! Schooling :(((

Since i have started to write again, and having a goal in mind this time, I will do my uttermost most to make it up to date. The goal this time is just to publish all my works online!! I dun wanna let works which i think are splendid sit at home for my own viewing pleasure. I would of course like to hear words of praise [being thickskin] and also let people share my joy and pride in my works!

Hehehe! ooooohhh... now that im getting started after being stagnant for like 2 yrs! [omgosh!] im getting quite excited here and would like to immediately do all and i mean ALL like at once! But i noe its fat hope lah! aha [laugh at myself] ALL would include: A totally self-owned background! woohoo... all my drawings up! and my stories up! hehehe... budden hor... im a noob... so must go clinched some people to help me with the work!!!! ahahaha.... [looks at Angie! ahem!] Oh ya ah! now that i think about it. I could add comments on wadever anime or manga im currently on. For now, nothing has caught my interest yet so i am so bored to death!

Aiyo! now the blog oso not pretty yet! v sianz de u noe! I WAN MORE TIME!!! lol... or just GIMME MAHOU! hahaha. Ok lah ... enough basketful of nonsense for the first post and just wait patiently until all my uploads are done! lol ... Ciao! Sayonara! Tchjious[Gek! dunno how to spell. or Auf Wiedersehen!] Zai Jian! Goodnite!

P.S. IS MY BLOG TOO DAMN COLORFUL AND LOUD?!?!?! i think its a bit... lol .... but heck! i like all colours. Also cant decide. hahahaha... wait till people complain to me first k... hoho...